God of the Ordinary

I've been struggling lately with a lot of things going on right now. Feelings of insignificance are always right there whispering in my ear, how unworthy and wrong everything I have, do, or want is.
Satan is doing his darndest to interfere in so many lives. I know he has always done it, but lately I really see it.
Please keep praying. Prayers can move mountains. And right now there are many in Haiti needing excavation.

On a personal level God is showing me some things right now and it is taking everything I have to stay focused. That is why I haven't blogged to much or commented on others blogs, or emailed. Todd and I are regrouping in some areas and really focusing on our family at the moment.

I have gone back to work out of necessity for the time being. NOT because we have more debt, but to stay out of getting into debt again! I find it ironic that after I got a chewing out by a well meaning person over our choice to home school this year (I was told I was talented and all but not disciplined enough, or patient enough, or educated enough to home school) I got a job assistant teaching in our local school system. And not a regular classroom, but a moderate handicapped class room. And if you don't know much about that just know it takes a LOT of patience and discipline to be in this class room! The first hour I am there I have been hit, smacked, spit upon, and yelled at. But also the rewards are priceless. The smiles, giggles, seeing a child achieve something the experts said they never would.

And the fact that as of the mail going out tomorrow, Jonas' last fee is being paid!

God is good! And I am in awe at how he justifies me. He is my defender and stronghold! And I am grateful! And it is only by His grace that we make it through each day. Many days I may feel insignificant, but God doesn't ask for the best...he just asks for the willing!

Here I am Lord, chose me!

Hugs, Kristina



God of the Ordinary

"For many are called, but few are chosen."

"There are many reasons why God wouldn't want to use many of us, but don't worry. We're in good company! As another has shared:

"Moses stuttered.
David's armor didn't fit.
John Mark was rejected by Paul.
Hosea's wife was a prostitute.
Amos' only training was in the school of fig-tree pruning.
Jacob was a liar.
David had an affair.
Solomon was too rich.
Abraham was too old.
David was too young.
Timothy had ulcers.
Peter was afraid of death.
Lazarus was dead.
John was self-righteous.
Jesus was too poor.
Naomi was a widow.
Paul was a murderer. So was Moses.
Jonah ran from God.
Miriam was a gossip.
Gideon and Thomas both doubted.
Jeremiah was depressed and suicidal.
Elijah was burned out.
John the Baptist was a loudmouth.
Martha was a worrywart.
Samson had long hair.
Noah got drunk.
Did I mention that Moses had a short fuse? So did Peter, Paul—well, lots of folks did."

"Satan says, 'You're not worthy.' Jesus says, 'So what? I AM.' Satan looks back and sees our mistakes. God looks back and sees the cross. He doesn't calculate what you did last year. Sure. There are lots of reasons why God shouldn't have called us. But if we are magically in love with Him, if we hunger for Him more than our next breath, He'll use us in spite of who we are, where we've been, or what we look like."2

Perhaps today's Scripture could be interpreted as follows: "For many are called, but few prove themselves to be chosen." In fact, God calls every one of us to follow and serve him. If he waited until we were fully mature, whole and complete, he wouldn't get anything done. He will use us exactly as we are as long as we are available and willing to be used. In so doing we will then prove ourselves to be chosen ones.
(From Daily Encounter)