Stairway of Faith

Have you ever been on a spiritual journey that feels like you are on a stairway to nowhere?That no matter how hard you try, you can't get to the next step?

Well I am there. This whole thing with Ellie has really gotten me discouraged. And I DON"T want to be here!!! I know discouragement is what satan wants me to feel. So I'm mad because I feel that way. Am I making any sense?

Having to do a homestudy all over again and get an extention on my 171h and get it all done within a month seems daunting to me. I know with my brain that it is easier than having to put together a whole new dossier again (which I've done twice now). But my heart is heavey and I haven't even looked at the paperwork to get started.

Then, enters my Haiti mom's group here in Evansville. It never ceases to amaze me how God uses them to lift me up with encouragemnet, God's word, and prayer. During our prayer group time this past Friday I shared how I was feeling. And one of them said something that really put things into perspective for me. She said, "Kristina you need to get it done so that you are not the reason for another hold up in Ellie's process." WOW! I really needed to hear that. She is right. I would be so upset with myself if I was the cause of Ellie's process being held up.

Do what I can do and let God take care of the rest. Thank you ladies for being there for me and always encouraging me! I love you!

I'm not angry anymore. But I asked God for something, anything to keep going.

I got it today! JONAS IS OUT OF PARQUET!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And if I got the information right we are now legally his parents! WhoooooHooooooo!!!!!!!!!!

Last, I wanted to share a poem I unearthed in the purging of my home recently. So glad I did. It helps describe this spiritual journey Todd and I are on with our adoptions.

Hugs, Kristina


The Stairway of Faith


When I told God that I was ready to be His, He put His arms around me, and told me that I had a set of stairs He wanted me to climb... Why, this is so easy, I thought.

But after a few steps, it became harder to climb some of them. Each step I was on, He would be a step higher with His hand holding mine.

"You can do it, because you know I'm here to help you, and if theres tears of struggle for the hard ones or tears of joy for the easy ones, it's ok. Some steps you will stay on longer than the others, but it's ok. Just remember to keep climbing and when you get tired, tell me. I'll help to pull you up to the next one, because it is a long stairway and I don't expect you to do it quickly, or alone. And I know you'll make the climb....

because I have faith in you, just as you have faith in me. And with each step, your faith will grow!"
~~~~~Ann Clark~~~~~